the mystic traveller.
A note to myself.
Bubbles.
Bubbles, on this day, you left me 7 years ago. I miss you. You were the best friend I had. I wish you never had to go. I am sure you are in heaven and having a peaceful time. I know you are listening to my thoughts so wanted to say, I think of you.
Cabin In The Woods.
I like this idea of going into the forest, staying there alone in a cabin for a couple of days. I did this sometime ago, when I visited Sweden, amidst forest in an Alpaca farm. I loved the serinity, the silence, and of course the Alpacas. I would love to do it again. I am reminded on my trip right now because one of my friends is taking a similar trip, and she is going to be alone without her phone or social media. It feels like she will be gone away for a very long time although it is just a day, because of the effect of social media in our lives and am in constantly touch with her. But what a brilliant idea. I am often scared to switch off my phone. I can be off social media, I don't think I have a problem with that. We are virtually connected to friends and family all the time, that we fail to be alone. I have old parents and I am afraid how they would contact me in case of emergency. Being able to switch off your phone is really a privilege these days. We are used to living in a world surrounded by virtual people with modified feelings. A world with emojis, likes, shares, photos. I love photography but look at how it has changed our lives. May of us are in constant pressure to share it with friends for an acknowledgement, often refrain due to judgements. It is a great place to reflect on yourself. I need to take trip as well. I have alot of papers to complete, so after that I plan to take a trip too.
Trust.
What makes you trust a person? Is it the comfort that they provide when you talk to them? Would you share your secrets with someone you have known recently? How do you know they are genuine? How do you know that they wouldn't use it to get back at you with what you have just told them? There must be some indicator that makes you feel safe and share your secrets? What is that? Why is that you feel comfortable with some people and not with everyone? One of my friends, recently shared everything with me about her past and I think it was because she thought I wouldn't sympathize with her. And I don't. Why should I? Past is just another experience; it doesn't degrade you in any way. Whatever happened, has happened. It is over, move on. If we get stuck in the past, we wouldn't be able to enjoy the present, and how do you handle the future. All of us have been there, where we did things with the limited knowledge and experience, we had. There is nothing to blame, or regret. If you can set something straight, and there is an opportunity to set it straight, then you could do it. But if not, consider it a closed chapter, take the learnings, and move on. Live today and only today. About trust, the whole thought was triggered because my new friend shared her past with me, just to avoid the details, there is nothing dark in it. But I wouldn't diverge even that much information to anyone, because I have been a closed book. I don't know what she saw in me, and why she shared it with me, and I respect her. I feel responsible for holding her story. Maybe she openly shares it with everyone, or she saw something in me. I think she has seen some confidence in me, and I would guard that trust until my last and thought I would never want anything bad for her. While her feeling towards me was one hundred percent right, she must have a strong instinct. Deep down I was scared for her, but for one, I thought to warn her not to share it with everyone but then I remembered I sometimes talk too much and first of all, I am incapable of judging her instincts, she was right in her thought, she knows what is right for her. And of course, my prayers. So, I kept quiet.
My Pen Pal.
So I wrote about a friend I met online few months back, a pen pal, from a different country, from a different culture. For me this is huge, if you are wondering why I am battling it in my head. I am not very sociable; someone who hits the local restaurant or pub and hangout with friends. I am someone who loves to enjoy the calmness, grab a cup of coffee alone by the lake, spend time hiking or cycling or just walking around. Anyways, we had a long chat, we shared quite a lot of personal stories. And I could see that she was open with me. It was super strange that she was echoing my mind. It was like telepathy at one point in time. Her views about life, and God matched mine. I felt weird because she would think I am bluffing if I agree to the same thing, but we were totally coherent. I didn't show it out. How can somebody be so like you? I am surprised to see the similarities between me & her. It was a mere coincidence that we had a chat. But why? Why should this happen? Why should I meet her? I think I agree to the fact that universe has weird way of connecting people. We met in the most unconventional way, and I am not sure she realizes it yet. I am not sure? Maybe she does, maybe she doesn’t. She is fun and I liked her instantly after I talked to her. I am not sure if she feels the same way. Although she said- she likes me, but anyone can say that right, just to make the other person happy. Although I am not like that, I don’t try to please people. We chatted for hours together until she fell asleep. I felt good after a long time and enjoyed talking to her. When you meet people who are genuine, you instantly know. I am happy I went with my instincts.